Edwin left for Misamis Occidental yesterday and will be away for the next 3 days. I was surprised when he told he will be on travel because he did not bring any clothes to the office when we left the house. He said he was just informed of the trip when we arrived in the office. The last time Edwin was away for more than a day was last year and I got used to having him home everyday. I felt like bawling in tears when he left. My only solace is that is also felt the same. You see, Edwin and I are "as one". We do things together and we are inseparable. We hold hands and kiss and are practically glued to each other. My friend, Butyak, often comments that I should learn to be independent of Edwin. It's hard to believe that before I met and married Edwin, I was used to doing things by myself. Growing up as the middle child made me very independent and self-reliant. But I found co-dependence in Edwin because no marriage will work without it. Though, I have to admit that I seem to be leaning into Edwin more and more.
I usually manage my loneliness well during office hours because work occupies most of my time but the nights are the toughest. When I got home last night, the children asked where Edwin is and I felt like crying again. When the children fell asleep, that left me alone with my thoughts and my loneliness. I could not sleep and my depression about the rationalization aggravated my insomnia. I decided to make a list of our pressing bills to bore me but listing them down depressed me more because we do not have the cash to pay the bills. Again, being poor is such a bitch. The good thing about my insomnia is that I'm awake early and I got to cook early and not be pressed for time. Edwin got to call early and Ate woke up just to talk to him. I am not so looking forward to another lonely night tonight.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Anxieties over Rationalization
I thought that when the Rationalization Plan will be implemented in my office, I will have the chance to be promoted to a higher position. Instead the constant revisions and changes in the organogram resulted in my displacement because the Planning Division positions were not enough for all the present staff. It was fortunate that my plantilla was originally with AMAD and I was placed to my original division. Although I am ecstatic that I will be working with Jenny and Butyak in AMAD, I will feel like an outsider because for how many years I have been with PD. But I do not back down from a challenge and working with people instead of numbers for a change will be refreshing. Other employees also share my sentiments because a number of us will be displaced. What is depressing is that for now we will retain our present positions and unless we pass the Aggie Licensure Exam, we cannot be promoted. Gone are my dreams of better finances.
There is also the possibility of Edwin being booted out of DA when the plan is implemented because he is not a college graduate. Honestly, Edwin and I have mixed feelings about it. For sure, we will lose Edwin's much needed salary and the money to pay for our DAMPC and GSIS debts. But Edwin will be freed from the anxieties and demands of bosses and he won't have to be subjected to certain abuses of authority. You see, Edwin is much too kind for the evils of authority. I want to shield him from those who want to take advantage of his kindness. I'd want to suffer those evils for him and keep him safe. Love will then be my armor.
Edwin and I even share jokes about his possible exit from DA. I'm fortunate that Edwin is skilled and does well with his hands. I bet he can earn more than his present salary if take in repair jobs. He is even eager to start our carenderia and spare parts planned business because he won't be limited anymore by the demands of the office. Edwin will be readily available to the kids who are competing with me for his attention. Even Gabby is into the fray.
Edwin and I are both positive that even if the DA door closes, God will open a window. I am praying that this window will even be bigger than the door. We will rise above all the challenges and come out much more stronger and probably more financially secure.
There is also the possibility of Edwin being booted out of DA when the plan is implemented because he is not a college graduate. Honestly, Edwin and I have mixed feelings about it. For sure, we will lose Edwin's much needed salary and the money to pay for our DAMPC and GSIS debts. But Edwin will be freed from the anxieties and demands of bosses and he won't have to be subjected to certain abuses of authority. You see, Edwin is much too kind for the evils of authority. I want to shield him from those who want to take advantage of his kindness. I'd want to suffer those evils for him and keep him safe. Love will then be my armor.
Edwin and I even share jokes about his possible exit from DA. I'm fortunate that Edwin is skilled and does well with his hands. I bet he can earn more than his present salary if take in repair jobs. He is even eager to start our carenderia and spare parts planned business because he won't be limited anymore by the demands of the office. Edwin will be readily available to the kids who are competing with me for his attention. Even Gabby is into the fray.
Edwin and I are both positive that even if the DA door closes, God will open a window. I am praying that this window will even be bigger than the door. We will rise above all the challenges and come out much more stronger and probably more financially secure.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Finding Hilarity in Tragedy
Finding hilarity is the last thing we ought to find in the Quirino Grandstand tragedy. But unfortunately our policemen were put into embarrassing light as local and international media covered live the hostage taking. The coverage showed our policemen surrounding the bus looking inept and totally hilarious in their futile attempts to open the front door with the hammer, and loosing the hammer because the policeman was too scared to properly pound the door. The bloodshed and death of innocent lives should not have happened if our country's police force was more adept in handling situations that required not only the skill in shooting someone but also on calm negotiation. As they say, brandishing swords do not win a war but a battle.
Innocent lives wasted. Innocent people caught in the crossfire of a man's quest for justice denied to him. A decorated policeman pushed to his limits by the system. So sad that Capt Mendoza had to resort to criminal means just to get a slim chance of review of his case. I doubt if Ombudsman Gutierrez will follow through her promise to review Capt Mendoza's case. So sad that Capt Mendoza's family will suffer the consequences of his actions. By next week, everyone else would forget this tragedy and another tragedy will replace this and the cycle goes on.
Innocent lives wasted. Innocent people caught in the crossfire of a man's quest for justice denied to him. A decorated policeman pushed to his limits by the system. So sad that Capt Mendoza had to resort to criminal means just to get a slim chance of review of his case. I doubt if Ombudsman Gutierrez will follow through her promise to review Capt Mendoza's case. So sad that Capt Mendoza's family will suffer the consequences of his actions. By next week, everyone else would forget this tragedy and another tragedy will replace this and the cycle goes on.
Migraines and Insomnia
I believe my hypertension is back again with a vengeance. I not only believe it but I can very well feel it. The reoccurring migraines is just one of the signs of my hypertension. Not being able to sleep is another. I went to Polymedic Hospital this afternoon to have my check up but Dr. Co is not around. I will have to suffer another night of pain and sleeplessness. Edwin is worried for me because I might go into another round of relapse.
We celebrated Mama Virgie's 60th birthday yesterday. Rusty won P26,000 from lotto using Mama Virgie's age and birthdate. We believe that Mama Virgie had a hand in his winning and Rusty used his advance-winnings to buy lechon, kinilaw and grilled fish. Everybody in the compound, even my Sacote family, partook in Mama Virgie's birthday bash. After the food preparations, a number of us went to Forest Lake to visit Mama Virgie's grave and had a good laugh over Auntie Lorna's antics. It was a good thing that Edwin chopped the lechon before it was served because it would have created a frenzy. The serving table was like a typhoon aftermath.
We celebrated Mama Virgie's 60th birthday yesterday. Rusty won P26,000 from lotto using Mama Virgie's age and birthdate. We believe that Mama Virgie had a hand in his winning and Rusty used his advance-winnings to buy lechon, kinilaw and grilled fish. Everybody in the compound, even my Sacote family, partook in Mama Virgie's birthday bash. After the food preparations, a number of us went to Forest Lake to visit Mama Virgie's grave and had a good laugh over Auntie Lorna's antics. It was a good thing that Edwin chopped the lechon before it was served because it would have created a frenzy. The serving table was like a typhoon aftermath.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Kris vs GOCC Extravagance
Its Wednesday and since Monday I have been glued in to the Kris and James Yap annulment bruhaha. I decided last night that enough is enough and I'd write about what I feel about the issues in the morning. But alas a more eye popping issue is posted in my screen - the extravagance of the salaries and perks of GOCC executives. Media and the people who are following the Kris and James Yup should be more tuned in and critical of the GOCC benefits issue. Why? Because millions of ordinary government employees are suffering from very low salaries but a handful of civil servants likes us are enjoying the salaries and benefits fit for a king. The last time I checked the Philippines is not into monarchy but democracy. Aha naman ang demokrasya ane?Ga antos mi ug sweldo nga dili igo para ipa eskwela sa among mga anak ug sweldo nga kulang para ipalit ug pagkaon para sa among pamily?!!! These GOCC executives should be lined up along the Intramuros wall and shot. The Japanese honorable suicide of kamikaze and hara kiri will not apply to these people because they do not have a conscience. Millions are suffering and hungry but they do not care.
Do they even deserve to receive these perks? The employees in my office are akin to dogs waiting for crumbs from the table because our CNA, a meager amount to some but deliverance from debt to me and majority of emloyees here, has to pass through the eyes of a number of needles just to get approved and be released. And yet there are people in the budget-inflated Government of the Philippines that get monthly salaries and benefits that equal to 2-4 years of a middle rank employee. My God, have these people no shame?
Top earners: COA records showed that the following officials were the top earners among GOCC officials in 2007: Arreza (P14.5 million), Laus (P9.1 million), Alfonso Cruz of Landbank (P7.2 million), Amado Tetangco of the BSP (P6.1 million), Horacio Templo of the SSS (P5.8 million), Jose Carmelo Nograles of Landbank (P5.4 million), Narciso Abaya of BCDA (P5.1 million), then Transportation Secretary Leandro Mendoza (P4.7 million), Gilda Pico of Landbank (P4.7 million) and Alberto Agra of the Office of Government Corporate Counsel (P4.5 million).
For 2008, the top earners were Arreza (P30.3 million), Laus (P10.9 million), Edgardo Garcia of Development Bank of the Philippines (P10.2 million), Winston Garcia of GSIS (P8.5 million), Ernesto Bitonio of DBP (P7.4 million), Rolando Geronimo of DBP (P7.3 million), Feliciano Salonga of SBMA (P7.7 million), Templo (P6.4 million), Abaya (P6.2 million) and Tetangco (P6.1 million).
For 2009, the top earners were Arreza (P26.8 million), Ricafort (P14.5 million), Garcia (P12.7 million), Tetangco (P10.7 million), Bitonio (P9.3 million), Geronimo (P9.8 million), Abaya (P7.6 million), Templo (P7.7 million), Armando Samia of DBP (P6.9 million) and Maria Theresa Quirino of DBP (P6.7 million).
SBMA Administrator Armand Arreza’s financial package included P1.5 million (basic salary), P40,000 (per diem allowance), P100,000 (representation and transportation allowance) and P145,800 (bonus and incentives). In addition, Arreza was entitled to “extraordinary and miscellaneous expenses” (EME) worth P18.1 million, an amount intended for activities such as “meetings, seminars, conferences, special entertainment and public relations.”
If you want to check out the details, read your newspaper! Mga igsoon sa panarbaho sa gobyerno, magpakabana ta!
Do they even deserve to receive these perks? The employees in my office are akin to dogs waiting for crumbs from the table because our CNA, a meager amount to some but deliverance from debt to me and majority of emloyees here, has to pass through the eyes of a number of needles just to get approved and be released. And yet there are people in the budget-inflated Government of the Philippines that get monthly salaries and benefits that equal to 2-4 years of a middle rank employee. My God, have these people no shame?
Top earners: COA records showed that the following officials were the top earners among GOCC officials in 2007: Arreza (P14.5 million), Laus (P9.1 million), Alfonso Cruz of Landbank (P7.2 million), Amado Tetangco of the BSP (P6.1 million), Horacio Templo of the SSS (P5.8 million), Jose Carmelo Nograles of Landbank (P5.4 million), Narciso Abaya of BCDA (P5.1 million), then Transportation Secretary Leandro Mendoza (P4.7 million), Gilda Pico of Landbank (P4.7 million) and Alberto Agra of the Office of Government Corporate Counsel (P4.5 million).
For 2008, the top earners were Arreza (P30.3 million), Laus (P10.9 million), Edgardo Garcia of Development Bank of the Philippines (P10.2 million), Winston Garcia of GSIS (P8.5 million), Ernesto Bitonio of DBP (P7.4 million), Rolando Geronimo of DBP (P7.3 million), Feliciano Salonga of SBMA (P7.7 million), Templo (P6.4 million), Abaya (P6.2 million) and Tetangco (P6.1 million).
For 2009, the top earners were Arreza (P26.8 million), Ricafort (P14.5 million), Garcia (P12.7 million), Tetangco (P10.7 million), Bitonio (P9.3 million), Geronimo (P9.8 million), Abaya (P7.6 million), Templo (P7.7 million), Armando Samia of DBP (P6.9 million) and Maria Theresa Quirino of DBP (P6.7 million).
SBMA Administrator Armand Arreza’s financial package included P1.5 million (basic salary), P40,000 (per diem allowance), P100,000 (representation and transportation allowance) and P145,800 (bonus and incentives). In addition, Arreza was entitled to “extraordinary and miscellaneous expenses” (EME) worth P18.1 million, an amount intended for activities such as “meetings, seminars, conferences, special entertainment and public relations.”
If you want to check out the details, read your newspaper! Mga igsoon sa panarbaho sa gobyerno, magpakabana ta!
Monday, August 16, 2010
Basketball, Jogging and Gym
I'm still in the office waiting for Edwin to get back from playing basketball with his ball buddies. I've already been to Divisoria to buy Gabby's milk and rubber nipples. Wanting to surprise Ate, I bought a dozen of Dunkin Donuts for her and Jianna to enjoy. Edwin and I may not have the extra cash to indulge our daughters in material things but we make sure that they never lack of the things that we feel are important and should be a priority in our family budget. As much I want to buy my children fancy toys and fashionable clothes, I compensate by providing them with the love that no money can buy. December is just but 4 months away and with God's blessing, our extra office bonus might be big enough for indulging in material wants. After paying all the obligations, of course.
Basketball keeps Edwin fit and seeing how his protruding tummy bothers him, I let him play all he wants. He used to go on early morning jog at Greenhills in Bulua with Reyan and Rhandy so that he has enough lung power for playing ball. But when the rain season and the cold mornings came, waking up early was a sacrifice and he had to literally wake himself up to jog. Although he has not taken up the jogging routine again, he makes sure he gets to play at least once a week.
Edwin was also encouraged by Rhandy and Reyan to go to the gym. He did try and paid for a month worth of gym hours. He used to go to the gym after office hours and after waiting for his boss to go home. He may have liked to continue to go to the gym but because he knows that I am adamantly against it, he opted not to renew his membership. I can't explain it but I get jealous whenever he goes to the gym. I have a very warped sense of imagination and my imagination fueled my jealousy. Thinking back about it now made me realize how selfish and immature I was about Edwin going to the gym. Even Kenneth repeatedly told me that I have no cause to get jealous because Edwin is only at the gym to sweat and exercise. Besides, he said, if I want to see for myself what really goes on the gym, I can always enroll seeing that I need the gym services more that Edwin does. Frank friends can really be a pain at times.
Anyway, Edwin still hasn't arrived from wherever they are playing and I'm already hungry. I've already eaten one donut and thinking about eating another. Edwin better be back or else I will eat the whole box. Better eat the banana instead, its healthier and non fattening.
Basketball keeps Edwin fit and seeing how his protruding tummy bothers him, I let him play all he wants. He used to go on early morning jog at Greenhills in Bulua with Reyan and Rhandy so that he has enough lung power for playing ball. But when the rain season and the cold mornings came, waking up early was a sacrifice and he had to literally wake himself up to jog. Although he has not taken up the jogging routine again, he makes sure he gets to play at least once a week.
Edwin was also encouraged by Rhandy and Reyan to go to the gym. He did try and paid for a month worth of gym hours. He used to go to the gym after office hours and after waiting for his boss to go home. He may have liked to continue to go to the gym but because he knows that I am adamantly against it, he opted not to renew his membership. I can't explain it but I get jealous whenever he goes to the gym. I have a very warped sense of imagination and my imagination fueled my jealousy. Thinking back about it now made me realize how selfish and immature I was about Edwin going to the gym. Even Kenneth repeatedly told me that I have no cause to get jealous because Edwin is only at the gym to sweat and exercise. Besides, he said, if I want to see for myself what really goes on the gym, I can always enroll seeing that I need the gym services more that Edwin does. Frank friends can really be a pain at times.
Anyway, Edwin still hasn't arrived from wherever they are playing and I'm already hungry. I've already eaten one donut and thinking about eating another. Edwin better be back or else I will eat the whole box. Better eat the banana instead, its healthier and non fattening.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Missing Ebooks
While I was on training last week, changes to the internet usage were enforced by our IT unit. I was going to catch up on whatever is cooking in facebook when the "Web page is blocked" appeared on the screen. The blocking did not bother me because I can always catch up during the lunch break. Besides, my spam inbox gets daily facebook updates from friends. Deciding instead to download ebooks, I find myself perplexed and irritated to find put that even 4shared.com was blocked as well as tvblinx.com. I read the info screen and saw the reason for the blockage:Multi media download. Yup happy days of downloading ebooks and watching Without A Trace online is now over.
But I found out during the lunch break that the office has not completely squashed my happiness and allowed the downloading during the break. I will just have to research the titles I plan to read before the break so that I'll have more time to download it at 4shared.com when the site is opened. I will have to go to Cogon Market and search through the pirated DVDs for my Without A Trace. My sisters told me yesterday that The Good Wife is also a nice series to watch. Guess I'll have read the reviews to see if its worth braving the mosquito bites when I watch it.
But I found out during the lunch break that the office has not completely squashed my happiness and allowed the downloading during the break. I will just have to research the titles I plan to read before the break so that I'll have more time to download it at 4shared.com when the site is opened. I will have to go to Cogon Market and search through the pirated DVDs for my Without A Trace. My sisters told me yesterday that The Good Wife is also a nice series to watch. Guess I'll have read the reviews to see if its worth braving the mosquito bites when I watch it.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Saving the Best for Last....GIS style
It's our 3rd day into the GIS appreciation training and Abel from Butuan is lecturing on the podium. The training program saved the best module for last - GIS Query and Use of Tables. Nobody wanted to have lunch because we were all engrossed in the exercise Abel had us do. I guess the topic was saved for last because we wouldn't have appreciated the topic if we had not taken up the map viewing and editing data exercises. Although our maps got lost often in the last 2 days of training because of innocently tapping buttons, we immensely enjoyed doing the exercises and redoing everything once we get the hang of it.
The 3rd day proved to be the most enjoyable because we got to manipulate the data in tables that are the attributes of the map that we have been painstakingly trying our best to destroy. It's a good thing that the provincial boundaries are set or else I could have moved Camiguin to Lanao. Both Governors Romualdo and Dimaporo would have gone beserk at the thought. The 3-day training not only introduced me to the wonders of GIS but the 3-day training also added gross inches to my waistline and weight. Yup, the amount of food I consumed in the last 3 days equaled to the amount of knowledge I gained. It's a good thing we end today or I would not fit in the doorway anymore.
The 3rd day proved to be the most enjoyable because we got to manipulate the data in tables that are the attributes of the map that we have been painstakingly trying our best to destroy. It's a good thing that the provincial boundaries are set or else I could have moved Camiguin to Lanao. Both Governors Romualdo and Dimaporo would have gone beserk at the thought. The 3-day training not only introduced me to the wonders of GIS but the 3-day training also added gross inches to my waistline and weight. Yup, the amount of food I consumed in the last 3 days equaled to the amount of knowledge I gained. It's a good thing we end today or I would not fit in the doorway anymore.
Training Woes and Oohhss
On my second day of GIS appreciation training, our resource person, Gauie was trying his best to explain the all too technical geographical referencing and GPS to lowly analog mortals like me and failing. I may not fully grasp the vertex points and tiff and other terms that I have pushed to the far recesses of my brain as soon as I heard it but when he showed us the final output, it got me appreciating it and exclaiming my Oohhss. We also got the taste of getting the GPS coordinates under the heat of the sun. It just shows how interested I was because I braved the mid day sun just to get the approximate coordinates. I may be into ditigal but I'm still hopelessly analog.
The training participants are a mixture of personalities. When things get too complicated for us, we resort to humor to lighten the mood and groan aloud whenever our maps just happen to disappear from the ArcView window. Now I know why the MLGUs in the MRDP shake their heads and complain when the subject of the BDP packaging is mentioned. Overlaying of thematic maps is one of the requirements in the BDP and the barangays are expected to come up with it. The last 2 days exercises showed me that the overlaying of maps is not as simple as putting one map on top of the other although simply saying its just that. But doing the overlaying thing via GIS is well, just hard. I sympathize wih the MLGUs now. It really is not easy especially if you do not have the data needed for the overlaying.
This training can also be aptly titled "Appreciation and Vexation of GIS". Because after you start to appreciate it, the feeling of vexation comes next. What does tomorrow brings to analogs like me?
The training participants are a mixture of personalities. When things get too complicated for us, we resort to humor to lighten the mood and groan aloud whenever our maps just happen to disappear from the ArcView window. Now I know why the MLGUs in the MRDP shake their heads and complain when the subject of the BDP packaging is mentioned. Overlaying of thematic maps is one of the requirements in the BDP and the barangays are expected to come up with it. The last 2 days exercises showed me that the overlaying of maps is not as simple as putting one map on top of the other although simply saying its just that. But doing the overlaying thing via GIS is well, just hard. I sympathize wih the MLGUs now. It really is not easy especially if you do not have the data needed for the overlaying.
This training can also be aptly titled "Appreciation and Vexation of GIS". Because after you start to appreciate it, the feeling of vexation comes next. What does tomorrow brings to analogs like me?
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Techie 3 days
I am attending a 3-day training here in Pearlmont on GIS appreciation. I've always been fascinated by GIS and the like because of my addiction to "Without A Trace". Without A Trace was a drama-suspense series in the US which featured FBI Special Agent Malone and his team that were tasked to find missing persons as soon as they were reported. They used various technology to find these missing persons and GIS was one of the technology they use. They traced the person by tracking the signal on his cellular phone and by other gadgets that emit a signal. Although technology was an important tool in finding the missing person, it were the skills of the agents that were critical to the investigation. The team not only finds the missing person, they also solve the crime and the motive behind the disappearance.
Back to my training, the next 3 days will orient me on GIS so that I can appreciate it and hopefully my appreciation will prod me to the next level. I want to apply what I will learn on GIS to my M&E work in MRDP. I want to map the MRDP subprojects and beneficiaries using GIS so that it will be easier for future World Bank projects to locate and identify MRDP subprojects. GIS is expensive because the people skill needs to be complimented with hardware and software. I hope the office can provide the needed hardware and software so that what I will learn in the training will not be lost to me.
Back to my training, the next 3 days will orient me on GIS so that I can appreciate it and hopefully my appreciation will prod me to the next level. I want to apply what I will learn on GIS to my M&E work in MRDP. I want to map the MRDP subprojects and beneficiaries using GIS so that it will be easier for future World Bank projects to locate and identify MRDP subprojects. GIS is expensive because the people skill needs to be complimented with hardware and software. I hope the office can provide the needed hardware and software so that what I will learn in the training will not be lost to me.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Distractions
I've been distracted lately and I have not been in top form for work these past few weeks. I've been sick in more times than I can count since June and its affecting my work. Worrying about our finances has also been causing me insomnia. The good thing about my insomnia is that I'm awake to take my daughters' temperatures at dawn and alert enough to give them their medicines while Edwin is resting. But Edwin is worried about me and urging me not to worry too much about money and things. I can't help but worry. Our monthly expenses are way above our salary. Edwin and I had to take out loans from GSIS, Pag-Ibig and our coop to augment our income so that we can pay the bills and buy food and milk. Jianna's therapy is also a big dent in the budget. Edwin and I have decided to take Jianna out of therapy and enroll her in a regular nursery school. We are praying that by letting her enroll in regular school, she'll get over her speech difficulties because she gets to interact with other kids.
I often stay awake at nights and worry where to get the next money to pay for therapy, CEPALCO and wages for the yayas. My excessive worry is triggering my depression and I sometimes just want to escape it all. Edwin is also worried but I worry more than enough for the both of us. Hope came this Monday when our association head announced that the office will be implementing the Rat Plan. I'm hopeful that with the implementation, I can get promoted and get a higher position that offers a better salary. Money may not be everything in this world but having money sure does helps me sleep better at night.
I often stay awake at nights and worry where to get the next money to pay for therapy, CEPALCO and wages for the yayas. My excessive worry is triggering my depression and I sometimes just want to escape it all. Edwin is also worried but I worry more than enough for the both of us. Hope came this Monday when our association head announced that the office will be implementing the Rat Plan. I'm hopeful that with the implementation, I can get promoted and get a higher position that offers a better salary. Money may not be everything in this world but having money sure does helps me sleep better at night.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Competence
Facebook has become a powerful tool. The idiom "the pen is mightier than the sword" has taken on a different level with facebook. My office has not been spared from issues that cropped up in facebook and in other personal blogs. When in other facebook pages shout outs are often comic and other times profound, issues on competence, fair csw treatment, retreats and others are in my office. You see, the office where I work is flailing between the "old school" and "new school". I'd like to believe that I belong in the "new school" of thought and I believe that service to the public should not depend on the position one hold but on one's depth of commitment to serve. I am one of those that wrote my opinion in facebook on the way things are happening in the office and what I thought about it. When PNoy got elected I prayed that change will come and the changes will bring hope to my family and to the rest of the Filipino people. I am hopeful and I'm clinging on to that hope because letting go of it is like letting go of my dreams for my children.
In flailing between schools, competence of employees are questioned. When the opportunity presented itself, I declared to a room full of division chiefs and 3 directors that I am competent and I deserved my salary. Even more as one friend added. I sympathize with those that have been treated unfairly because I, too, was treated unfairly more than once in the last 9 years. May be PNoy's promised "change" will also rub off to people who still think that the right to demoralize, insult, abuse fellow workers, and to shamelessly glorify oneself comes with the position and the paycheck.
In flailing between schools, competence of employees are questioned. When the opportunity presented itself, I declared to a room full of division chiefs and 3 directors that I am competent and I deserved my salary. Even more as one friend added. I sympathize with those that have been treated unfairly because I, too, was treated unfairly more than once in the last 9 years. May be PNoy's promised "change" will also rub off to people who still think that the right to demoralize, insult, abuse fellow workers, and to shamelessly glorify oneself comes with the position and the paycheck.
A Year Ago..
I went through my blog this afternoon and realized that my last post was a year ago. A lot has happened since July 27, 2009 and unfortunately, they were not all that rosy. I found out I was pregnant last October 2009 as I was on my 4th month into the pregnancy. For real? Yup, for real. I was too busy with MRDP and traveling from Monday to Friday since February that I never really noticed that God has decided to give me another angel to love. Gabrielle was born March 5, 2010 in the easiest, fastest and painless childbirth. She decided not to tire and scare her Mommy so much in delivering her that I almost gave birth to her in our mini cruiser on the way to Maria Reyna Hospital. My OB did not make it in time to do the delivery but Dr. Reliquete was so happy that I had a normal delivery. The labor was so fast that I skipped the Labor Room agony. The ward men and resident OB had to take me directly from the ER to the Delivery Room because I was already crowning. Dr. Absin was also not able to make it to the delivery and thankfully Maria Reyna Hospital has a resident Pedia to "catch" Gabby when she wanted to come out in howling glory. Because it was so fast, the medical staff they did not have the time to drive away Edwin who came in with me to the room. Edwin was there to see Gabby when she came into the world. And Gabby looked so much like Edwin that even the staff noticed. Gabby is now 5 months old today. She is a source of sunshine in the house that everyone is in love with her. Ate Leilalia and Ate Jianna fight over each other as to who gets to let her smile the more. That privileged is reserved for Edwin. As usual, Edwin is the apple of all my daughters eyes. And mine too.
December was sad for our family. Edwin's mother, Mama Virgie, died on December 8 after succumbing to complications from chronic renal disease. She was hospitalized 3 times in the year and after she left the hospital last November, it was just a matter of time before she passed away. We brought her home against doctor's advice because she does not want to die in the hospital and she wanted to see her grandchildren. She loved Leilalia, Jianna and Samella very much and even when she was suffering and dying, it was her grandchildren's welfare that mattered to her the most. She wanted to go home because she said she does not want her children to go into more debt that her "apos" will have to go hungry. I owe Mama Virgie a lot because she was always there when Edwin and I need her to be there for the children. I know her death devastated Edwin but I also know that her death liberated her from the suffering. Her death brought Edwin and his siblings closer and together they are stronger.
December was sad for our family. Edwin's mother, Mama Virgie, died on December 8 after succumbing to complications from chronic renal disease. She was hospitalized 3 times in the year and after she left the hospital last November, it was just a matter of time before she passed away. We brought her home against doctor's advice because she does not want to die in the hospital and she wanted to see her grandchildren. She loved Leilalia, Jianna and Samella very much and even when she was suffering and dying, it was her grandchildren's welfare that mattered to her the most. She wanted to go home because she said she does not want her children to go into more debt that her "apos" will have to go hungry. I owe Mama Virgie a lot because she was always there when Edwin and I need her to be there for the children. I know her death devastated Edwin but I also know that her death liberated her from the suffering. Her death brought Edwin and his siblings closer and together they are stronger.
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